It's Just Not Fair!

God, could things get any worse!

I reached a low point on Friday.
The last two weeks hadn't been too bad. A little strained because of the financial situation but plodding along, getting on with things and planning for payday and exactly where the money is going to need to be divided to try and salvage the pilfered Xmas savings.

Thursday night however I was spoiling for a fight, I took it out on my kids and my hubby and ended up having a bit of a row over everything imaginable.
Friday morning saw me lose it completely.
Murron just got up and decided that it was her mission for the day to wind me up and she just picked the wrong moment because I let rip. So much so that on the way to school I broke down and cried while screaming at her for being horrible and selfish.

After the school run I sat and mulled things over even more and then let rip at my Mum. She listened while I blubbed about the last month and that I didn't know where I was going wrong with Murron and basically let me get it out of my system.
Unfortunately that wasn't enough because I got to work, sat down for the handover with Sue, the Ward Manager and Sister Julie and when Julie asked if I was OK I blubbed all over again!
Thankfully the day was very busy as we had to deep clean most of the ward while it was quiet so I had plenty to keep me occupied without having to interact with too many people. 

Saturday, things had calmed down a little. I had a quiet day doing practically nothing before taking the kids out to a family party for the evening and we just chilled. They were little angels. Which is frustrating because I know they can be little angels! Why can't they do it all the time?

Anyway, Sunday arrived and Ian was home and we broached the subject of 'our future'.
It's Frightening when you think that we have been renting the house we are currently in for 7 years and that adds up to £52,000!!!!!
I had never looked at it like that before. If you add the 2 years rent at the previous house that's a grand total of £66,500 of our money going into other people's pockets!
So, we went to our local housing development to look at 'possibilities'. There is a house within our grasp. We just need to seriously speak to a financial advisor to see what he 'advises' in the current climate with our current credit history.

We came home, did some gardening, had a roast dinner, things were looking normal...........
Then our fridge freezer stopped working! FUCK IT, want to throw anything else at us this month!!!!? C'MON!!

I had intended to lighten up a little when blogging but right at this precise moment in time I have very little to lighten up about.

I'm sitting here contemplating what to do today.
The utility room is a mess, the kitchen is a mess, the house in general is a mess, my car needs cleaning inside and out, the back garden needs a good weeding....... I simply do not have the get up and go to do any of it.